Some have true faith, others none at all. And there are those who dabble with faith. They are not quite sure if it God exists, and do just enough to hopefully get into “heaven” in case they were wrong but not enough to commit themselves to a religious faction. And for some faith is still a gift that they have yet to receive. I wrestled with this the day I saw that Charlie Kirk had been assassinated.

 

I mean here is a man who is totally devout of faith. In the meanderings of my thoughts in that stunned moment, was a question. Here is a man of faith yet where was the magical shield of protection to stop the bullet? Why did God not save him? I have thought about this as a physician and healer as many a time when I have lost patients. Or when I see the news about people dying suddenly from disease or murder, old or young it does not matter. I feel it strongly. I suspect you do too. It is an inner unconscious reflection of our own mortality.

 

Deeper contemplations for me have revealed the following. What may look like a shortened life for some, may prove to be the deliverance of a legacy unto the world. Like when a young child dies of cancer, the force to find cures may increase in the form of a foundation of charity and awareness of disease. Same with illnesses like Alzheimer’s or Parkinson’s or Multiple Sclerosis or heart disease. Huge foundations have come about due to someone dying from that illness. Same with Kirk dying at 31. His premature death has led to a huge world awakening. So perhaps the universe has a way of “saving” that person but in a different way by carrying a torch burning brighter in their absence, greater than they could have imagined while being alive. Sometimes it is the death though hard for family and friends, is the catalyst by which the universe moves forward. Death is not the end, it a way of transforming our physical, mental energies into a bigger tangible spiritual form.

 

Secondly, none of us know when we are going to die. It is wise to live wisely, heathy and with humility in purpose with a clear vision and mission. We all seem want to live to be a 100. Some do. Some do not. We never know what the soul’s agreement with the divine was in the first place. Perhaps it is a 100 years of life to experience all of life’s bounties and challenges, lessons and teachings. And for some a lesser time frame to explore earth’s amusement park of experiences. Like a young person with cancer, or hunger or poverty stricken demise, or killings. This happens globally. We are not aware of all the deaths that happen throughout the world due to the biased lens of media outlets. The cause is less as important as is the fact that it happened.

 

We feel bad when a young person passes versus an older person because of the natural expectation that all death is “supposed “ to be after old age. We are shocked when it happens prematurely. What if that soul’s karmic contract was supposed to be only a tip toe in the world of illusion for a few years. There is so much more that we do not know about happens behind the curtain of death. What if this life in fact is the dream and illusion and when we “die” we actually wake up to who we truly are, as beings of Light.

 

I derive more solace knowing that it is more about how we live than how we die. Sometimes quick and painless is best like the sudden cardiac arrest, versus the suffering of multi system organ failure I see routinely in patients who go surfing on pills, procedures and their social circle is doctors’ office waiting rooms. Sometimes just dying in our sleep is most preferable.

 

As I struggle with my own feelings of my own mortality ( as well most do), I feel frustrated, angry, remorseful, unsettled about someone dying in the prime of their life. Perhaps it is the senseless nature of it that bothers me. I do not know. This is going to take time for me to resolve internally, as the trigger keeps happening with more people being killed without apparent rationale. Admittedly I am invited to surrender to the understanding that there is divine timing and there is human timing. I am asked to return to faith and trust the former.

 

God’s shield of protection is in the life that we lead and the bringing of our soul back home. It is found in the people we care about and love and those who love us back. It is abundant when we have faith and trust, and even when we have none to spare. The protection and grace is always there like a hand always holding us, guiding us. A powerful space to contain and preserve our legacy of love and wisdom.

 

None of us are getting out of this game alive. What matters is what we do with the time we have left.

 

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I love you