It is crazy out there. No really it is. On the highway, I am now seeing more and more notifications on electronic billboards “ Crash up ahead”, “ Delays due to car accident”. At first when I started on this route, I would be feeling sorry or would say a prayer, and now as I see these signs, I start to think with annoyance of how much more delayed I am going to be to my destinations. This recurrent thought has been happening more frequently. Like a loop each day the habit forming thought comes in and goes out just as quickly with a sigh, some muttering of obscenities and the shaking of my head as I bury the left side of my head into my leaning hand against the elbow on the door.

So the other day, I caught myself with this pattern, after witnessing yet another sign of an ongoing car crash that was going to delay me by another 20 minutes. Wait a minute I asked myself. When did I become so jaded and lack of empathy at some one else’s misery? How did I become so numb to these critical situations. The numbness is like the dull mind fog we experience when we look up from scrolling on our screens. Disconnected, emotionless, hardened and just plain numb.

I asked myself another deeper question. What ELSE am I numb to in my life and in the life of those around me? Food, self care, hydration, world events, family dynamics, and the list went on as I started to jot them down feverishly on my post it pad while in standstill traffic. How did I become numb to what others were feeling. Yet the grander question was how did I become numb to what I was feeling that I did not recognize anything outside of myself ??

Life has a way of making us hard with the constant bombardment of suffering, tragedy, pain, anxieties and fears. We become cocooned and insulated against the outside world as we try to become less vulnerable and stay hidden as we shrink deeper under the blankets of our emotions. Hiding behind our screens, we disconnect from reality. Stay small, and hidden, provides the illusion of safety. We all do this. It is natural. Yet life has an organic way of making us step out of our shell during poignant moments such as the one I was experiences. Sudden stoppage in the pattern jars us enough to pause and rethink.

Breathe, pause and contemplate. Reset. Re-observe. Retune. Recenter. And Return back to the present is the key to breaking any pattern of the mind. All loops are interruptible. All paths lead to healing. Even the painful ones. Especially the most painful ones. Life has a way in bringing us back to becoming whole again. To returning us to love. To returning us back home.

The heart space is the home.

The heart is the beginning and the end of all journeys. If love is the destination, then the intuition is the GPS that brings all life roads and paths back to the home that is the heart, where all love sits waiting for us patiently to return, even if it is for infinity.

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I love you